So here we are, Josiah’s big dramatic reveal. I think a lot of people were expecting a bit more in regards to why he’s so far in the closet, but the truth of the matter is that for a lot of people it isn’t really like that. Sometimes it’s just a lot of shit that you internalize throughout your whole life and weave so tightly into the fabric of who you are that it gets really hard to separate.
Damn. Same thing going through my mind the last couple of months. Fortunately, the person I tried becoming is nice and likable, so I have it good, while I figure out what of “myself” is actually me and what is just learned and gleaned off of other people and the media.
Lucky for me I recently found someone who loves me for the little things that do shine through from, what I think is, my real personality. Now I just need to experience this and work through it.
Sorry for Teacher-Sensei. Seems like he wasn’t that lucky.
I think it’s something a lot of closeted people go through. I know I did anyway. We don’t get the same pop culture guidebook to growing up that straight boys get, so unfortunately we kinda gotta piece it all together ourselves.